Poem about friendship

Here is a poem that I did not write but thought I would share here.

When troubles come your soul to try
You love the friend who just stands by.
Perhaps there’s nothing they can do
The thing is strictly up to you.

For there are troubles all your own
And paths the soul must tread alone.
Times when love can’t smooth the road
Nor friendship lift the heavy load.

But just to feel you have a friend
Who will stand by until the end.
Whose sympathy through all endures
Whose warm handclasp is always yours.

It helps somehow to pull you through
Although there’s nothing they can do.
And so with fervent heart we cry
God Bless the friend who just stands by.

from emmie TW eating disorder

trigger warning: eating disorder

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not eating makes me feel safe. i dont know why but it does. We were only allowed to have a certain number of calories growing up and now i freak out when we go over that amount, it’s like its a PTSD trigger… not sure if this makes sense.

i dont eat so i dont remember. i know the others eat but then i feel guilty cause i use laxatives… i feel like such a failure. i just wanna do things 12 year olds do. Why? Why me?

Emmie

frum Amithyst

hi it me Amithyst. i be hapy taday. i lik the computer. it be fun. i wan candy but we not have any. we hav lemon cooky but it be yucky!! me no lik it. me lik da music we play on da speaker thingy. how evrone be taday?

Amithyst 6

Dietitian appointment yesterday feeling very invalidated

So, yesterday, we went to see our dietitian. As soon as I walked in, and she weighed me, she said well, what are you doing right this time? I knew by that comment that I had gained weight. I then showed her the appeal letter that my attorney had written, and she said that it was a little intense when she had talked about the risk of me dying. I just thought it was really invalidating. It only reinforces the belief that we are not sick enough. Plus, the others don’t feel comfortable coming out around her because she always says that she is not the therapist when the slightest hint of that is happening. Anytime we try to talk about things related to Food, she said we need to talk about what you’ve eaten or what you haven’t eaten. I just wish there was more to the dietitian appointment than that.

Ray

please donate for a much needed device!!!

Hi everyone,
so I’m trying to get a new device called the BrailleNote Touch Plus. It’s a Braille tablet that will help me with productivity and keeping up my Braille skills. It also would be easier for me to type on because it uses a touch screen. It would be way easier on my joints. I know it is expensive, but I really need it to keep and maintain as much independence as possible. Even if you can’t donate, I wod appreciate it if you could share the link. Thanks.
https://paypal.me/rayetter/

Thank you.

Ray

hopeful update about the appeal

So got an email from Megan yesterday, and it said.. they will be sending a draft of their appeal letter to their supervisor and finalizing it, and then they will send us a copy. God, i hope this appeal goes through and we finally get treatment.. Should know something by Monday or Tuesday if they got the appeal and then the hearing has to be scheduled with the state. That could take a few months, but hope not!! we just need a break!! i hope against all hopes and odds that we will finally get the help we need!! 

Ray