CANT do this!! just cant *tw*

so just found out that after all these years, insurance doesn’t even have all my diagnoses listed. They don’t even have PTSD. i basically have to be re-evaluated for everything!! just feel like ing crazy!!! i want out!!! i cant do this!!! this with the news that we got from our dietitian today, just to much!!!Ray

NOW WILL THEY LISTEN? *tw*

ITS ENIGMA. WE WERE TOLD TODAY THAT IF WE CONTINUED TO LOSE WEIGHT THAT OUR DIETITIAN WOULD HAVE TO SEND Us SOMEWHERE TO GET A TUBE!!!! OUR LABS ARE OFF AND OUR WEIGHT IS BECOMING CRITICAL. I mean SHE WANTS TO TUBE US, I MEAN I DONT THINK SHE WANTS TO, BUT SHE MIGHT HAVE TO. WHEN IS IT GOING To BE ENOUGH FOR THE INSURANCE COMPANY TO SEE THAT THEY NEED TO STEP UP and STOP BEING SO DAMN MONEY GREEDY!!!! WE CANT JUST DO THIS WITH OUR DIETITIAN. SHE SAID HERSELF That THERE WAS ONLY SO MUCH SHE COULD DO.

ENIGMA

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Therapy in a little bit

Hi everyone, We have therapy in like half an hour. Enigma needs to talk to him today about her feeling suicidal. I hope we have a good session. Ray

love my therapist!!!!!!

So I love my therapist!!!! He is so amazing!!!! He said he would sign on wit hmy insurance and if they didn’t accept him, he would work with us probono!!! He admitted that he has never treated anyone with DID, but that he did study it as his area of expertise. He is willing to do whatever it take to work with us. He wants to see us for like twice a week for like two hours. He says that in his oppinion we should be in a higher level of care because of the number of suicide attempts and the eating disorder. He understood why Emmie is the way she is and how that affects us with food and that what Emmie went through is part of the programming. Overall, it was a good session.

Ray

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good day yesterday

So, we had a good day yesterday. We hung of of some frs. Every had ice cream. I had a strawberry cheesecake blizzard. It was good. Now I feel guilty though now. Why do ow put myself this this? I know it was just ice cream, but still, I don’t know. I stayed at my friend’s house for like 2 hours. It was a good time.

Ray

Needing Support

im struggling. i feel fat. i feel disgusting. I ate a bowl of Crave chocolate cereal, and now I feel guilty. So many calories. i know i need to eat, but why do i feel so guilty? God i hate tthis.

Ray