I wish I could get rid of these thoughts. Thoughts of suicide are coming back. Just wish I could stop it. I wish I could stop the nightmares and flashbacks. I just wish I could stop at all. I could really use a friend right now.
I switchedto android because, for one, it’s more affordable. The second reason is because Android has come a long way in terms of accessibility. TalkBack, the native Android screenreader has come a long way in terms of making the android phone work properly. Another thing I love about Android is it’s openness of the platform. I want to tell people that are looking at Android, that it’s a good operating system.
So, hello, it’s about 5 am here, and I’m just writing on this blog on my computer. I woke up around 3 this morning. I slept from 1:00 O’c yesterday until about three this morning. So I’m not tired at all.
As most of you know, I have dissociative identity disorder. My name is Amilia and I am 16. I hate nightmares and flashbacks. It makes me so angry. I just wish I could deal with the flashbacks and nightmares and not have to deal with them at all.
I have a new podcast episode out. You can find it on iTunes or Stitcher. All you have to do is type in my name. My first name.
My family makes me happy. They’re always there for me. They will never leave me. They’re the light of my life.
So, I’m starting a #100daysofhappiness challenge. I want to get rid of some of the negativity in my life. Hoping other bloggers will follow my lead… Please comment down below with your thoughts or ideas.
So, tonight, I couldn’t sleep because of nightmares. It was horrible… I just wish I could sleep without nightmares… I’m just so done with them. All my alters are very angry because of them… I just wish I could focus on something else besides the nightmares…