feeling low

I wish I could get rid of these thoughts. Thoughts of suicide are coming back. Just wish I could stop it. I wish I could stop the nightmares and flashbacks. I just wish I could stop at all. I could really use a friend right now.

why I switched to Android?

I switchedto android because, for one, it’s more affordable. The second reason is because Android has come a long way in terms of accessibility. TalkBack, the native Android screenreader has come a long way in terms of making the android phone work properly. Another thing I love about Android is it’s openness of the platform. I want to tell people that are looking at Android, that it’s a good operating system.

Hello world!!!!!!!

So, hello, it’s about 5 am here, and I’m just writing on this blog on my computer. I woke up around 3 this morning. I slept from 1:00 O’c yesterday until about three this morning. So I’m not tired at all.

It’s Amilia trigger warning

As most of you know, I have dissociative identity disorder. My name is Amilia and I am 16. I hate nightmares and flashbacks. It makes me so angry. I just wish I could deal with the flashbacks and nightmares and not have to deal with them at all.

new podcast episode

I haveĀ  a new podcast episode out. You can find it on iTunes or Stitcher. All you have to do is type in my name. My first name.

#100daysofhappiness challenge

So, I’m starting a #100daysofhappiness challenge. I want to get rid of some of the negativity in my life. Hoping other bloggers will follow my lead… Please comment down below with your thoughts or ideas.


So, tonight, I couldn’t sleep because of nightmares. It was horrible… I just wish I could sleep without nightmares… I’m just so done with them. All my alters are very angry because of them… I just wish I could focus on something else besides the nightmares…