really depressed….

So, I’m feeling really depressed….. Thoughts of suicide are coming back…. I just wish I could just make the thoughts go away… I’m just so done with everything…. I just want everytying to stop…. I keep meeting more and more littles in my system… I’m up to 65 now…. I haven’t even begun doing trauma work in therapy yet, and I’m already meeting more and more littles… I keep having nightmares and flashbacks which don’t make me feel safe…. I’m beginning to wonder if the hospital would be a good place for me to be right now….

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