update time!!!!!

So last night Amilia came out and ended up cutting. It’s very superficial, so it will heal pretty quickly. Amilia left a suicide note on my computer the day before yesterday… I just wish I could have stopped her this time. A few days ago, she broke a CD, but I came out before she could do anything. I was told that that was a big step in recovery from DID, but I couldn’t stop her this time. I think she’s angry that I’m going back to school. She hates the existence of the body. I wish I could make her see that she has nothing to be afraid of. I just need time to process all of this… I’m getting excited to go back to school. I guess the other insiders aren’t looking forward to school though. When you have 120 other people to contend with their needs, it can get overwhelming… Amilia wants the body to die, and Erica doesn’t want to eat at all. I’ve lost five pounds in the last week because of this. I’m down to 145 pounds now… Sorry this is so long. I just had a lot to say this time.

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3 Replies to “update time!!!!!”

    1. Amelia loved his suicide note on my computer. I showed it to my therapist, and she asked me if I was going to go to the hospital. He told her that my facility doesn’t like to send people to the hospital. I told her this. Amelia left a suicide note on my computer. i’m supposed to be starting school this month, but I don’t know if I can handle it.


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