So, I’m doing really not ok…… Thoughts of suicide are coming back. I just wish I knew how to manage all this. Suicidal thoughts are filtering from my alters to me. I’m learning new coping skills in therapy that should help me better handle all this. I’m in a bit of a crisis right now…. Alters are all in upheaval right now about going back to school. I just wish I could fix things. I wish I could make things calm down. I wish I could make people calm down. Amilia was programmed to kill the body shouldthe memories come out, and she will stop at nothing until that’s done.