So, I will never be able to have the first time of having sex that everyone talks about. That was taken away from me as a child. I will have to explain it to my boycfriend and hope he understands…… Just really need a friend right now…..
tags[DID, alters, dissociative identity disorder, mental illness, blindness, sadness, depression]
Categories[personal, mental illness, disability, sexual abuse]
So, I have a list of coping skills to use to cope with mental illness. Take a long hot bath, take a walk. eat mindfully. draw. paint. color. rip up paper. put your hands in a bucket of ice or ice water. This is all I can think of right now.
So today, I had like six bites of my salad for lunch. Then I had half a peanutbutter sandwich. I know I’m struggofling with anorexic thoughts today. I could really use a friend.
5 bites of turkey, 30 calories, two bites of vegetables 10 calories, three bites of a dinner roll 50 calories a bowl of applesauce 30 calories total: 110
That’s what I had for lunch.
tags[anorexia, eating disorder, dissociative identity disorder, alters, diary, food journal, mental illness]
So, it’s Rayette. I am refusing to eat lunch today or am I need five bites of food, but I hate getting late and I hate eating. I hate gaining weight and I hate eating.
Hi, it’s Amilia, and I want to purge. I hate gaining weight. We founda new diet on YouTube called the five bite diet. You drink coffee for breakfast and then eat five bites of food at lunch and dinner. I know purging is bad for me, but I still want to do it. I’m 16.
tags[alters, anorexia, bulimia, DID, dissociative identity disorder, eating disorder]
So, I think my anorexia is coming back. I hate eating. I hate gaining weight. I think if I eat that food, it will make me fat…. I just wish I didn’t have such irrational fears of food… I just want to be normal…
So, I had to downgrade my blog… Ended up spending more money than I intended on spending. I have almost 130 followers on my blog!!!!! Keep the follows coming!!!!
So I think my anorexia is coming back… I found this new diet called the five bite diet, and I started it today. I know I shouldn’t restrict, but I do because I need to shrink into oblivion.
So, I plan on making another YouTube video at some point today. I wish I could figure out how to beat this anorexia that seems to be coming back…. I ate an egg salad sandwich today for lunch… I’m doing relatively well today. Some alters aren’t feeling ok, but that’s to be expected with DID. Not all alters will be feeling totally ok….