So, I went to sleep at around 930 last night and woke up at around 130. I’ve been went back to sleep and woke up at like 330, and then I went back to sleep and woke up around 530. I decided to stay awake then because I knew I wasn’t going to get any more sleep. I then went to ask if I could take a shower on third shift, and they told me to wait until first shift got here. So I waited until first shift I got here and ask them. They told me that they could help me, so I went to turn on the music in my bathroom because I can’t take a shower without music playing or I’ll have a panic attack. Then, one of my sweet mates decided to go tell the staff that the music was bothering her. I will leave around three older ladies all in their 60s, and I’m 24. I’m just frustrated by this whole thing. I live around three other ladies who are like in their 60s. The music was coming through my iPod speaker which isn’t very loud. Yesterday, my boyfriend made a smell some of his cologne and ask and body wash. It triggered some other insiders to do their programming. They wanted to die. I did everything I could to keep them from coming out. I guess I was successful, but I was up most the night last night because I couldn’t sleep because they kept saying things to me. I just want to leave this place. I hate living here. I hope this post isn’t too long, but I hope more people read my blog now. I will try to tag this post, but don’t know how successful I will be as I’m using the iPod app. If anyone is out there reading this, I would appreciate some support as I am struggling today. I don’t even know what to tell my counselor later today after our DBT group.