Going back to the state hospital

All of the psychiatric units they had on their list were full. I found out this morning that my only two options were going back to the nursing home where I was being verbally abused or go back to the state hospital where I was being bullied by a patient who I know is still there. There is too much chaos for a blind person with PTSD and multiple personalities to be at that damn place. I wish I had an advocate, a family, but I know I have all of you for support. I’m leaving tomorrow, and I no longer have my computer for journaling. I also found out that I have to give all of my money from the last three months back to Social Security because they overpaid me.