Here is an email I sent to my caseworker to send to our treatment team.
Yes, they’re still there. Here’s an email I sent to Vicky earlier hich she hasn’t replied to yet.
I appreciate all of what you all do for us. The DID diagnosis was confirmed in therapy session on Wednesday. I know I may be difficult at times to deal with, but I want you to know that we’re trying. I’m fighting for the survival of this body and fighting for the chance to heal from my past. I need to know all of what happened to me so that I can heal from it. This may take a very long time to do, but even through the hard times, I need all of you to be there for us. If we do attempt suicide or self-harm, it’s not for attention. It’s because the pain we’re in is to great to live with. I wish that could be communicated to the ospital as well. They don’t understand DID at all. It’s going to take a lot of time and hard work, but I know some day, we will heal. Even if we fail, we will keep trying. There may be days where we want to give up, but you have to encourage us to keep going no matter how much we may not want to do it. If that means you have to put us somewhere to keep us safe, then that is what that means. No matter how much we resist, you have to keep pushing. There are some inside who don’t want to keep going or live, and they need to be worked with. We know we are a xomplex system, but with time and compassionate people, we can learn to work as a team.
Please forward this to everyone on the team.
From: Gelana McCloud [mailto:gelanamccloud]
Sent: Friday, November 17, 2017 9:46 PM
To: Rayette <rayette.rucker23>
Subject: Re: no lseep and feeling overwhelmed…..
The procedure was done today. 5 dark entities were removed from your left wrist and hand. Are the darks still present?