So, I’ve been struggling with an eating disorder for the last 17 years. For the first 10 years, it was strictly anorexia, and then behaviors alternated between binging and Starving in Cycles. At my lowest weight at 14, I weighed 79 lb. I’m surprised my teachers and school never said or did anything about it. I then also realized that my alters have eating disorders of Their Own. This makes things very complex and confusing as I’m not sure how to work with it all. I’m going back down the road of starvation again. I am finding it very hard to even drink things such as ensure or even eating a piece of cheese. I feel so stupid, lost, and alone. I weigh myself everyday but I’m trying to weigh myself less like maybe once or twice a week. I am trying my best to do this thing called recovery, but I have Medicaid so finding treatment options is not easy. The nearest IOP program to me is two and a half hours away. My alters have behaviors such as binging, starving, and purging. I used to take diet pills and use laxatives as well. If anyone has any tips for recovery from an eating disorder when you also have did, please comment. I now weigh 116 lb. Sorry if this is triggering to anyone.
living life to the fullest with dissociative identity disorder and other mental illnesses
Have you considered a residential program? I don’t have did, but I struggle from bulimia and I have for 15 years. Residential was one of the best things I did.
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Don’t have the money for it, and I’m on Medicaid. Also, I can only be out of my apartment for up to 180 days.
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That makes sense.
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I have posted a link to my Twitter to my PayPal for people to donate.
Ray
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are there insider who do eat? like food? maybe get them to help? to pick out favourite foods, et? thats all i can think of. xx
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There is Amilia, but she binges and purges, so that won’t work. There is Millie who loves food.
Ray
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do you have access to a dietitian?
meeting with a dietitian has been one of the best parts of my recovery –
they can help you create a meal plan, and give you tips on how to follow it
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No, I don’t have one. My insurance is limiting on what it will cover.
Ray
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weight restoration is rough without support. i’m so sorry to read this only now :(( i feel so similarly about people noticing though – i was at a similar lowest weight and nobody ever suspected anorexia… its tough. there are supports for recovery, but you still have to self motivate to reach out to those supports. you can do this Ray. all of you can. (i hope that this is an okay way to say i am speaking to both you and all your alters! if it’s not then let me know!)
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You’re totally fine. Thanks for the support. I just have to rely on support groups and stuff because we don’t have the professionals in the area to help us.
Ray
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