Feeling accomplished

So, we got some news yesterday that the appointment we were supposed to have on March 5 cannot happen because of insurance. When we were with Meridian, we had transportation, but now that we are on straight Medicaid, we don’t. So our appointment had to be moved to April 3. Our caseworker, your member Sarah? Haven’t seen her in a month, anyway, she is taking us on April 3 to see this doctor. The entire reason we got this new doctor was because insurance wanted the diagnoses to come from a doctor. So the appointment that was scheduled in January cannot happen until April. That’s a little ridiculous since it is just establishing care with the primary care provider. Anyway, the point of this email, we have not had homemakers for three weeks, and we have had help here and there from our friend Carol. Well, I did the dishes this morning! Didn’t have any issues with dizziness or my heart rate or anything. Feeling very accomplished. Later today, our Department of rehab services worker is coming to have us sign forms that she said she should’ve had a sign last time she saw us. It is going to reestablish our homemaker services. In other news, the appeal that we are trying to get against Meridian is going to be tricky because the rule that we had for months to file or request the appeal is a state rule, it’s not something the insurance company came up with, so we don’t know if we can get an extension. It’s looking like we can’t. Anyway, that four months is up on April 19. Once that is up, we cannot fight them anymore to get them to pay for treatment. We are hoping for the best.

Ray

why me? *tw*

*triggers talk of ritual abuse*

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Why was I allowed to escape? Why weren’t the other kids allowed to be free? Why did they have to die or continue to be programmed? Why just why??? Why did we have to kill those children? Why did we have to do those horrible things? I feel so guilty!!!

Ray

Always live to inspire.

anorexia thoughts *TW*

Anorexia says no food, but food is fuel.

Anorexia says I’m fat, but I’m not.

Anorexia says I’m not sick enough, but I am.

Anorexia says I’m not deserving of treatment, but I am.

Ray

Always live to inspire.

Daphne

Hi my name is Daphne. Im 5. I luv peple. I luv da color blue. Me no lik memries. Me jus wanna be hapy. Me lik all you peple on heer. Luv you all.

Daphne

an email i sent Lily

Hi Lily,

ive been out all day for the most part except for when the other people were here. Jennifer and Ashley were their names i think. Ray got upset and we had to go to our room as i came out and didn’t want to be found out. we are made as to not be noticed. i know we need help, but they’re not doing anything. if we don’t get help, i fear we will die… sad, but true… we are so very very tired.

Katie 16