Month: August 2019

Trigger warning: ED behaviors mentioned
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HELLO EVERYONE, IT’S AMILIA. I JUST FEEL SO GUILTY. I WANT TO STOP USING LAXATIVES, BUT I CAN’T STOP. I JUST FEEL SO FAT. SORRY IF THIS TRIGGERS ANYONE, BUT THERE’S A TRIGGER WARNING FOR A REASON. I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO UNDERSTAND. I JUST FEEL SO SO ALONE. I CAN’T SPEAK, WHICH MAKES ME FEEL THAT MUCH MORE ALONE. PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME SOMEONE GETS THIS. I JUST FEEL LIKE I’M LETTING EVERYONE DOWN.
AMILIA

Always Live To Inspire

Hello everyone, we just want to express our gratitude to all of you for everything you are doing for us. Your support means so much, and we couldn’t ask for more. Love you all so much. We wish you all the best on your healing journeys.

Ray

so hi,

we had theryap today. it was god. Apparently, the driver of the car that was driving us to the sesion had problems, and the driver knew about them on his way here. Wel, i had to wait at Lily’s office for almost an hour for them ot send another driver. That was rediculous. Then, i was supposed to go to Walmart with some friends tonight, but when i called to arrange to be picked up from the store tonight, they told me there was no roomm on the bus. so we can’t go to the store with our friends. so, looks like it’s a night at home. why they only have room for ten people on the bus is beyond me

Ray

Trigger warning: eating disorder mentioned and behaviors

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Hi everyone,

so tomorrow is the evaluation that Meridian wants us to do. we are afraid of how it will go. What if that psychologist sides with the insurance company? She only got records from the time we wer at ISVI like 5 years ago, nothing from the past five years. w are freaking out about all of it. and the food…. Ray i thik ate like a lot yesterday, and w are freaking out about th weight gain. i dont like it. i hat it. we are just freaking out.

Emmie and Brianna

hi erbody,

its athena. i had a cookie erlier. it wa nummy!! it was a buter cookie. i liked it. anyone else like cookies?

Athena 6

This is a picture of my nails. We just got them done. They are ruby colored.

Hi everyone,

So we are celebrating. We are getting our nails done. Not sure what color we will get. Maybe a different color on each nail!!! That would be cool, but some of us want pink, hot pink!!!! Yay!!! The appointment is at one!!!! Getting picked up tby the cab at 12:30!!! Yay!!!! Get to get pretty!!!

Ray

Hi everyone,

So we are finally on the train on the way home. Megan was helping me to the train, but when she tried to get someone else to help us, they said no and wouldn’t budge. So she helped me all the way to the train. Then they were being nitpicky about the lower level seating. They said we needed to be on the higher deck, but we told them we had issues that made it harder because of joint issues. Then they told us that we had to wear headphones to use mobile devices. We had left out Bluethooth ones at home, so we muted our watch and muted our phone and turned it down to a barely audible level. This is a nightmare!!!!

Ray

The DID diagnosis was confirmed!!! The psychologist said that so many people have only looked at the surface stuff and not been willing to tell our story, and he said he would tell our story and he was glad to meet us. He said my insurance was stupid.

We are having California Pizza Kitchen for dinner, and Cheesecake Factory for lunch tomorrow. Megan is so awesome!!! I like Dr. Rakofsky. He gave us his email to!!!

Ray

So the evaluation is finally happening this morning in about 2 hours. We are really nervous. We are not sure what to expect, but we know we will make it through. We are in a hotel with a king-sized bed and a sofa, and a bathroom with tiled floors. It’s really nice!!!! The bed is sooo comfy!!

Hope everyone has a good day.

Ray