CTL application decision

So CTL decided not to approve my application. They had told me before that it would take up to two weeks to make a decision. They just got all the references today and have denied my application. They couldn’t tell me why they denied my application. They said there were no appeals. Even after the references sent from the people i picked, they still said no. I just want to do something to help other people, but i guess we can’t even do that, and we can’t even find out why they denied my application. Ugh!!!! I was so looking forward to this!!!

Ray

aunt or abuser *TW*

Trigger warning: abuse *TW* sexual abuse read at your own risk

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its emmie.

i really hate to remember this, but our aunt who is a year older than us abused me when i was 11. our grandparents didnt do anything about it. they just let it happen, and when i tried to tell my grandparents, they didn’t believe me. she did really bad stuff to me. she made me touch her…. and…. other stuff. it was awfull. why did this stuff have to happen? the memories are to much!! she gave me food or not when i did what she said. Sometimes, when i was eating, she took my plate out from under my fork and my fork just hit the table. i don’t like to hold forks now for that reason. and our grandma would hit the backs of my knuckles with a wooden spoon when she saw me eating with my hands when we were still learning to use a fork and spoon. All this conbined with the cult stuff makes me not want to touch food. i don’t feel safe to process this stuff because Lily is so far away. Sorry to dump all this on you.

Emmie

crisis text line

Hi everyone,

So I have applied to be a crisis counselor with Crisis Text Line. Really hope we get the job. Hoping it will be as rewarding as i know it wil be.

Hope everyone has a good night!!!

Ray

hearing status!!!

the hearing has finally been scheduled!!! It’s on September 23rd!!!! Yay!!! After all this time. Finally it’s been scheduled.

Ray

from Mimi

hi its Mimi. i be three. i meeted Lily da oder day. she be nise. she be so so kind. it be da firs tim i meetd her.

Mimi 3

Spoke to Megan

So,Spoke to Megan about an hour ago. She told me that her and Andrew are going to speak to the hearing officer on Wednesday. Hoping they will schedule the hearing then or ask for a hearing date. She was very relieved to know that the two psychologists and my psychiatric nurse practitioner and therapist were all on the same page about our diagnosis. Overall, I think the conversation went very well. Hopefully will have more news on Wednesday.

Ray

From Amilia TW ED behaviors mentioned

Trigger warning: ED behaviors mentioned
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HELLO EVERYONE, IT’S AMILIA. I JUST FEEL SO GUILTY. I WANT TO STOP USING LAXATIVES, BUT I CAN’T STOP. I JUST FEEL SO FAT. SORRY IF THIS TRIGGERS ANYONE, BUT THERE’S A TRIGGER WARNING FOR A REASON. I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO UNDERSTAND. I JUST FEEL SO SO ALONE. I CAN’T SPEAK, WHICH MAKES ME FEEL THAT MUCH MORE ALONE. PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME SOMEONE GETS THIS. I JUST FEEL LIKE I’M LETTING EVERYONE DOWN.
AMILIA

Always Live To Inspire

Thankful for you all

Hello everyone, we just want to express our gratitude to all of you for everything you are doing for us. Your support means so much, and we couldn’t ask for more. Love you all so much. We wish you all the best on your healing journeys.

Ray