Trigger warning eating disorder mentioned

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.I don’t have any idea why we are struggling so much, but the struggle is real. Different parts are using different behaviors, and it’s very frustrating. I know it all has to do with trauma, but it’s taking its toll. Feeling very stressed and alone. This hearing can’t come soon enough. I hate flashbacks and trauma memories with a passion. I don’t know if today’s date has anything to do with it. After the weekend, the hearing will be in one week. I am happy that this two-year battle will hopefully finally be over, but at the same time, we still have to fight the hardest battle of getting treatment. Recovery is not going to be easy, and it most certainly is not linear. I’m not counting on relapsing, but if it does happen, what are we going to do? We can’t fight another two-year battle to get treatment again. Just my rambling thoughts here on a Friday morning.

Ray