I’m so so sad, but don’t know why. i feel almost nothing except this overwhelming sadness. just want to sleep and sleep. why am I here? not sure why I’m out at all. I’m usually stuck inside. i don’t even know anything of our life now. i just know about the inside life in the inner world. am i still back where i was before? no, this place is different. i don’t know this place, this bed, this room. I guess it’s our apartment. just my rambling thoughts.