I hate insurance!

So, we still have no updates from our insurance company. They want us to do an assessment at an ophthalmologist in St. Louis which is like three hours away. So it’s going to be three hours there in three hours back just for them to say that we are blind and that is not changing. Six hours for that? It’s ridiculous! We also found out that they still have not found a psychiatrist to do the insurance companies assessment of things as they put it. They said the psychiatrist were based on availability. By the time they get the assessment set up, it could be too late. This is just ridiculous! We want treatment!

Ray

Update on how we are doing trigger warning talk of eating disorder

Trigger warning

So, we went to our dietitian appointment today, and our dietitian has said she is cutting our appointments to half an hour instead of a whole hour because there is nothing she can really do because our eating disorder is so ingrained. We were in the car earlier with one of the drivers from our insurance company, and she asked me why I needed a dietitian because I am not very big. I then told her I was anorexic, and she said she wished she was anorexic. I’ve been told her that anorexia is not a lifestyle choice. I don’t think she realized the implications of her comment, but she still shouldn’t have said anything. We still have no updates from the insurance company, and I am refusing to call my care coordinator anymore because every time I call her she has no new information. So we are playing the hurry up and wait game. It’s very frustrating. We are doing the best we can with what we have. We thank all of you for your ongoing and continued support love and patience.
Ray

Feeling accomplished

So, we got some news yesterday that the appointment we were supposed to have on March 5 cannot happen because of insurance. When we were with Meridian, we had transportation, but now that we are on straight Medicaid, we don’t. So our appointment had to be moved to April 3. Our caseworker, your member Sarah? Haven’t seen her in a month, anyway, she is taking us on April 3 to see this doctor. The entire reason we got this new doctor was because insurance wanted the diagnoses to come from a doctor. So the appointment that was scheduled in January cannot happen until April. That’s a little ridiculous since it is just establishing care with the primary care provider. Anyway, the point of this email, we have not had homemakers for three weeks, and we have had help here and there from our friend Carol. Well, I did the dishes this morning! Didn’t have any issues with dizziness or my heart rate or anything. Feeling very accomplished. Later today, our Department of rehab services worker is coming to have us sign forms that she said she should’ve had a sign last time she saw us. It is going to reestablish our homemaker services. In other news, the appeal that we are trying to get against Meridian is going to be tricky because the rule that we had for months to file or request the appeal is a state rule, it’s not something the insurance company came up with, so we don’t know if we can get an extension. It’s looking like we can’t. Anyway, that four months is up on April 19. Once that is up, we cannot fight them anymore to get them to pay for treatment. We are hoping for the best.

Ray

why me? *tw*

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Why was I allowed to escape? Why weren’t the other kids allowed to be free? Why did they have to die or continue to be programmed? Why just why??? Why did we have to kill those children? Why did we have to do those horrible things? I feel so guilty!!!

Ray

Always live to inspire.

anorexia thoughts *TW*

Anorexia says no food, but food is fuel.

Anorexia says I’m fat, but I’m not.

Anorexia says I’m not sick enough, but I am.

Anorexia says I’m not deserving of treatment, but I am.

Ray

Always live to inspire.

Daphne

Hi my name is Daphne. Im 5. I luv peple. I luv da color blue. Me no lik memries. Me jus wanna be hapy. Me lik all you peple on heer. Luv you all.

Daphne