New Diagnosis

So the other day, I got a diagnosis of dissociative identity disorder from my therapist. I have two other alters. Their names are Lucy who is nine and Amilia who is 16. Amilia is angry and self-destructive. She’s the one who cuts me when I’m not aware. Lucy is timid and shy and frightened. Sorry I haven’t updated in a while.

psychiatry appointment

I have my psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. I’m looking forward to it. I need to discuss some things ith him like the dissociation and cutting and not remembering what I did. Hope it’s a productie appointment.


So, last night, I was having flashbacks and nightmares, and I dissociated. When I came back, I realized that I had cuts on my wrists. Hince my earlier post about self-harm. It was really scary to deal with. This has happened once before. I just wish it didn’t happen at all.


So last night, I ended up self-harming… I just couldn’t take it anymore. The urges were so strong… I’m okay now. I just feel like a failure because I had gone three months without doing it.


So, I’m really struggling with self-harm urges right now… It’s getting harder and harder to ignore them… Trying to relax and just talk to people… Just really struggling right now…

Happy New Years!!!

Just wanted to wish all my blogging friends a happy new year!!! Hoping 2016 is happy and prosperous. I don’t have any new years resolutions this year. I keep breaking the ones I have made.

Christmas Day

Fearless Friday- it’s here. Once a year  this day comes. Sometimes it’s filled with fresh bread, potatoes, stuffing and turkey. Other times it just may be a sandwich or a cup of coffee.  You may be surrounded by many. Or sitting alone. Either way – you have you with you.  Sometimes it may not feel […]

Merry Christmas

For Christmas, I got makeup, jewelery, an iTunes giftcard, snowboots, and a hot chocolate it. They were all wonderful gifts!! I actually ate all my food at the meal… That was very anxiety provoking. I got through it, and that’s all that counts.