Just because you’re on vacation TW trauma

Trigger warning: trauma 

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Just because we’re on vacation, doesn’t mean our trauma stuff stops. We shared a link that someone else on Facebook shared, and it was about child abuse, spacifically that a 13-ear-old girl had died giving birth to her father’s child. I posted about it to spread awareness. Of child abuse, and someone commented on the post telling me to take a break, that i was on vacation, and if she were on vacation, she wouldn’t post about such topics. Ugh!!! This person always likes to start drama no matter what i post. So frustrating. And other proof that your problems don’t just disappear when you’re on vacation, my heart rate was 143 when i got out of the shower even though i took my med before i got in the shower. So just because you’re on vacation, doesn’t mean your problems go away. Enough said. Rant over.
Dilia

DONT WANT TO GO TO FUCKING THERAPY!!!!!

HEY, IT’S ENIGMA AND I DON’T WANT TO GO TO THERAPY BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THINGS. DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THE MEMORIES….. TO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!! RAY SAYS IT WILL BE OK, BUT I DON’T BELIEVE HER. ALSO DON’T WANT TO OPEN UP TO THIS GUY AND THEN HE DECIDES TO LEAVE US LIKE THOSE OTHER THERAPISTS DID….

ENIGMA

no more trauma therapist….

So our trauma therapist Gelana told us that she couldn’t be our therapist anymore because it would jeparodize our emotional and physical safety. Our general therapist knows nothing about our issues. Don’t know what we will do with no support… Just hoping we can get through this.

Ray

poetry

I feel like a ship tossed to and fro.

Pushed out to sea and pulled back in again.

Just feel like I’m a pawn in a game of tug of war.

Just feels like a fight I will never win.

Just feel like the darkness will engulf me alive,

And that I will never get the chance to just heal and thrive.

Computer charger update!!!!!!

So, I got a new charger for my computer yesterday. Looking forward to posting my blogs from my computer again. so, I’m doing really well today actually. I had no nightmares last night at all. I just want to thank all my blog readers for reading my blog, and happy reading.