Trigger warning: trauma
HEY, IT’S ENIGMA AND I DON’T WANT TO GO TO THERAPY BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THINGS. DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THE MEMORIES….. TO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!! RAY SAYS IT WILL BE OK, BUT I DON’T BELIEVE HER. ALSO DON’T WANT TO OPEN UP TO THIS GUY AND THEN HE DECIDES TO LEAVE US LIKE THOSE OTHER THERAPISTS DID….
So our trauma therapist Gelana told us that she couldn’t be our therapist anymore because it would jeparodize our emotional and physical safety. Our general therapist knows nothing about our issues. Don’t know what we will do with no support… Just hoping we can get through this.
I feel like a ship tossed to and fro.
Pushed out to sea and pulled back in again.
Just feel like I’m a pawn in a game of tug of war.
Just feels like a fight I will never win.
Just feel like the darkness will engulf me alive,
And that I will never get the chance to just heal and thrive.
So, I got a new charger for my computer yesterday. Looking forward to posting my blogs from my computer again. so, I’m doing really well today actually. I had no nightmares last night at all. I just want to thank all my blog readers for reading my blog, and happy reading.
So, I’m doing relatively well at the moment. I may make another video today. I’m not sure though.