frum Nina 6

hi its nina. im 6. i hate all the bad pictures in my head. the noises. i dont wanna go there agin. i dont lik it. da pictures mak me sad and skard. i not lik them. i kno how to type but not how to spel good. im wake now cuz of bad dreems… no fun.Nina 6

FROM MYRA TW TRAUMA

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HI EVERYONE,
I HATE TRAUMA MEMORIES. THEY REALLY SUCK. I HATE THINKING ABOUT ALL OF IT. THE MEMORIES ARE TO GRAPHIC TO TALK ABOUT ON HERE. I JUST FEEL ALONE WITH THEM, AND IT IS NOT FUN. IS ANYONE AROUND? COULD REALLY USE SOME SUPPORT.
MYRA

FROM MYRA TW FOOD

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HI, IT’S MYRA. I WISH I COULD EAT SOLID FOOD. I MISS IT SO MUCH. I MISS CHOCOLATE AND CHIPS AND ICE CREAM. IT JUST MAKES US SO SICK TO EAT IT. IT’S NOT FAIR. WHY DOES OUR BODY HAVE TO DO THIS TO US? WHY CAN’T WE JUST BE NORMAL? WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO SO HARD? I’M STRUGGLING TO SEE HOW OUR BODY DOING THIS IS NOT LIKE THE TRAUMA WE WENT THROUGH. MY HEART HURTS FOR EMMIE AND HER PARTS TO. THEY ARE STRUGGLING SO MUCH WITH ALL OF THIS. DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY ADVICE?

MYRA

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My ear herts. Im not sure why. Ttink something to do wif our eardrum. Reminds me of wen mommy putted a ring in my ear but don’t know why she do that. We not hear good wif that ear. It is the left one. Me no lik be in pain. No see doctor until June fir it. Not good. Not wanna herts. Not feels good.

Littles

from Mimi

hi its mimi. i luv da kitty. he bes so cute. he luvs me so so much. he be so soft. he lik be petted.

Mimi

from Emmie TW exhaustion

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I know we need to do work for our course, but we are just so so exhausted. I just wanna sleep and sleep. Don’t want to be tired. just don’t wanna do work today.

Emmie

from Enigma TW suicide

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Why do we keep trying to get doctors to listen to us? Why do we have to be in so much pain? Why do we keep trying? Just why?

Why does the insurance have to determine when and where we go to treatment? Want to be a bird and fly high into the sky and just…. Disappear!!!!!

No matter how much we advocate, we are still not in control of when or where we go for treatment. It doesn’t matter that we have lawyers involved. That doesn’t even seem to matter. We are trying so damn hard.

Enigma

Rayette Rucker

World Services for the Blind

Assistive technology instructor online trainee

Google Voice Number: (314) 637-9985

from Eliza TW trauma and sexual abuse

TW trauma

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Hi, it’s Eliza. I’m 14. I hate memories. I hate trauma. I hate that I have to remember all the things my father did to me. I hate feeling like I’m there again. The memories of being sold to all those men and having to unload my dad’s drug shipments that he got after I was raped repeatedly, over and over and over again, day after day. I hold so so many memories that the others don’t know about. Just don’t want to keep remembering this stuff.

Eliza 14

me wants choclate

me wants choclate but it makes our tummy hurt. me really really wants choclate!!!! not fair! why tumy hav to be hurting? why jus why?Lila

Trigger warning medical

TW medical . . . . . . . So, I spoke to Alsana today, and they do not take people with feeding tubes. They said if i got a feeding tube, I would need a higher level of care. I also spoke to Eating Recovery Center, and they said that they do feeding tubes on a short-term basis. So, basically, if I needed a feeding tube long-term because of gastroparesis, no place would accept me. So once again, we don’t fit into a box of criteria. So why even try to get into treatment? Also, Medicaid is coming up with a list of places they believe will meet my needs, and they are giving that to Meridian next week, so we don’t even get a choice in the places they choose. Everything just feels out of my control!!! Eating disorder programs don’t understand chronic illness, and I was even told by Alsana that in eating disorder treatment programs, you have to eat food, and if I went there, they would need a menu of foods from my GI team that I could eat, because i couldn’t have a tube during programming. The thing is, I can’t take the only motility med they prescribe which is Reglin. She also said that people on feeding tubes are just existing, not living. I’m half tempted to ask Megan to stop pursuing the eating disorder treatment. Ray