medical TW feeding tube formula issues and dissociation

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hi everyone,
we are struggling today. we are bloated because of our formula. we’ve been switching like crazy. Time loss and PTSAID is at an all-time-high. We are not dissociating when we are actually out as we started a new med called Neltrexone. It helps with chronic pain and staying more present when each of us is out. we have a chronic ear infection that we have aro be on eardrops for. Just stressed. Our dietitian isn’t listening to us either. She wants us to vent our G-tube three times a day. we don’t want to be on TPN…
Nicole 20

an email I sent my dietitian about formula

Hello Dustin,So, when we switched from 4 cartons to 5, they didn’t send enough cartons. I called the emergency person yesterday, and they said that technically, it wasn’t an emergency because I still had enough formula for overnight. I have 3 cartons for today and no more after that. I’ve been running liquid IV since yesterday afternoon when my cartons for the morning were finished. They sent me a total of 150 cartons with the 69 that they had sent when I got home from the hospital, and the 81 that they sent when we switched to the 5 cartons a day. I had already started to use 5 cartons a day from the 69 that I first got. The lady on the phone was blaming me for being out of formula, and she said that we could get the branch to deliver some if they had my formula in stock. She then said that if this happened again, that we would have to pay a $150 delivery fee. I’m on a fixed income… I just felt attacked when I called asking for help. Maybe not attacked, but blamed. Thanks for reading.
Ray

medical frustrations with fluids

So, I have POTS and gastroparesis and EDS. I have a port. My POTS doctor is only willing to give me 2 L a week of IV fluids for three weeks. I’m tube dependent as well. I also take Lenzess and so lose fluids there as well. If I didn’t take it though, I would be constipated. I went to my urogynocology doctor for pelvic floor biofeedback therapy, and my urine was a dark yellow color. So, I’m dehydrated. I can’t get more fluids through my tube than I’m already getting. He will not recommend any more fluids than what he is going to give me. I’m completely lost, because I keep telling him that I only get 1228 MG of sodium through my formula a day. I can’t mix salt or add anything else to my feeds because It can mess with how the formula is absorbed in the small intestines. If I don’t get more fluids after the three weeks, I will keep ending up in the hospital for dehydration. So, what’s the point of me having this port then? I’m just at a loss. Any advice? The POTS doctor is saying that hopefully my body will adjust. They are also leaving it to my GI doctors to manage the nutrition and hydration stuff, but the GI doctors don’t specialize in POTS… ugh!!!

Ray

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awkward

I’m at home, and I feel very awkward. Yesterday, the conversation was all about the restraunts people went to and how good the food was. I stayed out of the conversation. Then, they had my favorite meal from before I had my tube. It was lasagna with garlic bread. I just lay on the couch and pretended to be asleep. It was so hard. Just the smell alone was just…. But then, I thought of how sick the meal would make me, and yeah…. I’m fine when it’s one or two people eating in front of me, but when it’s a group, it’s overwhelmming… I also had to ask my little brother for help with pouring my formula into my bag, and I felt guilty doing it, because I thought I should be able to do this by myself!! I kinda felt like a failure… Then, my family told me my formula looked and smelled like baby formula and it looked and smelled disgusting. And I told them, well, it’s keeping me alive and left it at that.

Raych;

food the thing “i miss

You don’t realize how much food is a part of your life until you can no longer have it. I am thankful for my feeding tube, but I do miss food a lot! You would never know by looking at me that I have gastroparesis. I just want food!!

Ray

Thankful for my feeding tube

I am thankful for my feeding tube. It gives me nutrition. It gives me life. Without it, I would probably die. Chronic illness is a monster, but that tube gives me power. It gives me the power to live the best life I can live. It gives me the freedom to go where I want to go and do what I want to do. Gastroparesis will not defeat me. Maybe in the next 5 to 10 years, they will come out with a treatment that is covered by state insurances and is FDA approved, but until then, I am grateful for this tube. Yes, it may be uncomfortable. Yes, it may look weird to other people, but it’s my lifeline. Did I want this tube at 27 or at all? No, I didn’t, but I needed it to sustain my life. My stomach is almost completely paralyzed, but with this tube, I can live. Have a good day everyone. Thanks for reading.

Ray

explaining to littles

How do I explain to my littles about chronic illness? How do I explain that it won’t ever go away or that we will always be in pain? How do I explain that I can’t make their pain go away? I’m just at a loss? And how will I explain when we have to get a feeding tube?

Ray