reflections for this morning

So, these are some of my reflections for this morning as I sit here listening to music. 

God, are you there? I ask this question all the time. As I sit here thinking about all the chronic illnesses I’ve been dealt. I could be angry and resentful that God would let this happen to me, or I could see that he made me like this to help other people and to see that maybe he wants to use me to help others, because after all, my story does matter and i matter.

Why did I have to go through trauma and be diagnosed with DID? Well, I can tell you this, I have DID because it makes me stronger and each of my alters are a testament to that strength. They each are a piece of the puzzle that may at times seem complicated and hard to solve, but it is a beautiful masterpiece made in God’s incomprehensible beauty and wisdom. So, on the hard days when trauma and flashbacks are overtaking me, I remember that I am made in His image. He decides the plans for my life, and nothing happens without a reason, whether that be to teach me a lesson, or whether it be for me to gain more wisdom, there is a reason for everything. If you are going through a hard time, God wants you to know that he’s not finished with you yet. He has so much more planned for you, more than you will ever comprehend or know. Much love,



So our care coordinator is coming this morning. Not sure what this is going to be about, but I guess we will see. Hoping something good can come of it. I have had my morning Ensure today already. I’m really trying hard at this whole recovery thing. I’ve been dealing with this ED for way to long. Hoping that when Jennifer comes this morning she has some ideas for what we can do about this. Hope everyone has a good day. I plan on posting here more after the appointment. Much love to all of you, and thank you for all your support. It really means a lot. I love each and every one of you. I have a friend named Carol Anne. You can follow her blog at

I know she would appreciate it. To anyone who is struggling today, you’re not alone.