Anorexia says no food, but food is fuel.
Anorexia says I’m fat, but I’m not.
Anorexia says I’m not sick enough, but I am.
Anorexia says I’m not deserving of treatment, but I am.
Ray
Always live to inspire.
Daphne
Hi my name is Daphne. Im 5. I luv peple. I luv da color blue. Me no lik memries. Me jus wanna be hapy. Me lik all you peple on heer. Luv you all.
Daphne
frum Mira
hi im so so sad so very very sad. i wan a mommy. i want sumone to hug
me and tel me it wil be ok.. jus need a hug.
Mira
So so much *tw*
Hi everybody.
This is all to much. I dont wanna die!! We are really underweight. I want help, but no one will help us!! Feels like we have no control!! I dont like not having control!!! I dont know what to do. I just… dont know!! Just want to block everything out!!! Just so much anxiety!! So much pain… just so sad… so so sad.. just so tired… want the dreams to stop… just want it all to stop!!!
Emmie 12
Camille‘s introduction video
MEET AN ALTER | CAMILLE’s INTRODUCTION!!!
— Read on youtu.be/Ro6_rXHQe-c
BPD no no no!!!
So yesterday in therapy, Lily went ove the diagnostic criteria with us for BPD. She said that even though it’s mild, i still meet criteria. I don’t agree. Maybe I’m not seeing things clearly, but i just don’t see it. I’m not out of control with anger. In fact, usually, I’m not even the one who gets angry. Usually, it’s Enigma or Amilia or someone else who holds that. Lily said that anorexia could be considered impulsive. I don’t ge that, because it’s another disorder entirely. Again, maybe I’m wrong? I just don’t want to have BPD because of the stigma. I’m also confused because before, Lily was saying that i didn’t have it, but now, she’s changed her mind, just because i was in the hospital a few weeks ago for suicidal thoughts. wouldn’t any of you be to if you were going through what we are going through? I’m just confused… Any advice? Lily said she doesn’t even want to work on the BPD because it’s not my main issue. She says my main issues are DID, PTSD, anorexia and depression. She said DID was primary along with anorexia.
Ray
Porcelain smile
That porcelain smile on her face is fake,
How much wood will it take before she breaks?
The cracks in the smile are starting to show.
When will it break? Will anyone ever know?
I don’t understand why there must be a pain,
But we will keep pretending for as long as we can.
Does anyone see what’s behind that smile?
Maybe if they would listen to her for a little while, then they would know The world of pain and hurt, and loneliness she goes through. Will you listen to her? We will be a friend to her?
Or will she just break into 1 million pieces again!
It’s like her childhood is being repeated by the system that is supposed to help, but instead is re-traumatizing.
Ray
going home for Christmas
Hello everyone,
So we’re going home for Christmas. We hope it goes well. We are taking a few supplement drinks with us. Wish us luck. Have a happy Christmas everyone!!!
Ray
denied appeal
So they denied the appeal. We are taking them to court. Hope we win. This is rediculous.
They said we didn’t meet medical necessity criteria. To hell with them!!!
Ray
Update and our day-to-day
So today, we have a very busy day. Our homemaker is coming in about 20 minutes, and then we have therapy at three. After that, we have our holiday dinner for our apartment complex. Our attorney is also supposed to be submitting the appeal to our insurance company today. Hopefully we will be getting a copy of that appeal. I am very afraid about the holiday dinner because my biggest fear is that people will be watching what we eat. Have a good day everyone, and stay safe.
Ray
