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HI EVERYONE,
I HATE TRAUMA MEMORIES. THEY REALLY SUCK. I HATE THINKING ABOUT ALL OF IT. THE MEMORIES ARE TO GRAPHIC TO TALK ABOUT ON HERE. I JUST FEEL ALONE WITH THEM, AND IT IS NOT FUN. IS ANYONE AROUND? COULD REALLY USE SOME SUPPORT.
MYRA
dietitian today TW
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So we are going to see our dietitian this morning. We are just hoping she has some advice or anything really because we are down to 89 pounds. We are honestly scared… Don’t want them to force us back into eating disorder treatment as this is a physical medical issue. Eating disorders don’t cause gastroparesis this severe. Hoping for the best and some good news or advice. Hoping she doesn’t just say there is nothing she can do and we have to wait to see the GI doctor on the 20th.
Ray
Spoke to our primary care providers office yesterday trigger warning medical
Trigger warning medical not sure……So, yesterday, we called our primary care providers office and asked her for help. We asked if they could place an NJ tube, but she said that she could not do that. She had said we had to wait for the G.I. consult on March 20. She wants us to drink three protein shakes per day diluted with water to make them easier to swallow as well as eating three full-size meals per day. This is nearly impossible. We can barely manage some days to eat some applesauce and some chicken broth. Why can’t we just get help? I also found out why I haven’t been seeing my dietitian. My primary care provider never sent in a referral to her when I switched providers. So I have not seen her since January 7. I called her and asked her for her advice yesterday, and I asked her if she could prescribe a feeding tube, and she said if it was eating disorder related, maybe. She told me to also wait for the G.I. consult. I am just getting so frustrated at this point. I just need nutrition! Dammit!Ray
Brave
Trigger warning: trauma
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We are all so brave. We survived so so much. We are all shining lights for the rest of the world. Our scars make us beautiful. They tell our story, but they don’t define where we came from. Our scars make us beautiful.
Ray
Trigger warning medical
TW medical . . . . . . . So, I spoke to Alsana today, and they do not take people with feeding tubes. They said if i got a feeding tube, I would need a higher level of care. I also spoke to Eating Recovery Center, and they said that they do feeding tubes on a short-term basis. So, basically, if I needed a feeding tube long-term because of gastroparesis, no place would accept me. So once again, we don’t fit into a box of criteria. So why even try to get into treatment? Also, Medicaid is coming up with a list of places they believe will meet my needs, and they are giving that to Meridian next week, so we don’t even get a choice in the places they choose. Everything just feels out of my control!!! Eating disorder programs don’t understand chronic illness, and I was even told by Alsana that in eating disorder treatment programs, you have to eat food, and if I went there, they would need a menu of foods from my GI team that I could eat, because i couldn’t have a tube during programming. The thing is, I can’t take the only motility med they prescribe which is Reglin. She also said that people on feeding tubes are just existing, not living. I’m half tempted to ask Megan to stop pursuing the eating disorder treatment. Ray
Trigger warning weight and food and medical our psych appointment
Just because you’re on vacation TW trauma
Trigger warning: trauma
new kitty!!
We are getting a new ESA kitty. His name is Eden. He is soooo cute!!! We are in California now, but we have just ordered all his kitty things!! Can’t wait to meet you again Eden!!
Ray
from Lilianna food TW
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hi everyone, i hate food, it causes me so much pain. i hate it i hate it. i hate being in so much pain physically. i hate our achy joints. i feel like my body is punnishing me for doing what im supposed to, which is eat. ugh!!!
Lilianna
from Lilianna a teen part TW
Trigger warning: trauma and PTSD
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Hi its Lilianna. im 13. i hate trauma. i hate remembering. i hate flashbacks. i know we need to weigh more. i know we are to thin. i dont know how to help with stuff. i am just not sure how to stay out of the memories.
Lilianna