from Enigma TW suicide

TW suicide

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Why do we keep trying to get doctors to listen to us? Why do we have to be in so much pain? Why do we keep trying? Just why?

Why does the insurance have to determine when and where we go to treatment? Want to be a bird and fly high into the sky and just…. Disappear!!!!!

No matter how much we advocate, we are still not in control of when or where we go for treatment. It doesn’t matter that we have lawyers involved. That doesn’t even seem to matter. We are trying so damn hard.

Enigma

Rayette Rucker

World Services for the Blind

Assistive technology instructor online trainee

Google Voice Number: (314) 637-9985

why?

Hello everyone,

So, I’m just wondering why we have to have the issues we do with our stomach. I hate not being able to eat a lot of foods. It sucks. I’m sitting here now drinking a protein shake because food is just to much right now. I’m sitting in the library in our apartment building wondering why we had to go through trauma and why we got stuck with incurable diseases. This just sucks. I hate being in pain all the time. I hate not being able to type very well as a result of this. 

Ray

from Miranda

Hi, it’s Miranda. I’m 16. I don’t like being in pain. i hate it so so much. pain makes me feel sick. ugh!!!! why do i have to b in pain? 

Miranda

ONE OF  MY FAVORITE SONGS: BEAUTY FROM PAIN

The lights go out all around me

One last candle

to keep out the night

and then the darkness surrounds me

I know I’m alive

but I feel like I’ve died

and all that’s left

is to accept that it’s over

my dreams ran like sand

through the fist that I’ve made

I try to keep warm

But I just grow colder

I feel like I’m slipping away

After all this has past

I still will remain

After I’ve cried my last

There’ll be beauty from pain

though it won’t be today

Someday I’ll hope again

And there’ll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me

the best I can do is just get through the day

one life before is only a memory

I wonder why God lets me walk through this place

And though I can’t understand why this happened

I know that I will when I look back someday

And see how you’ve brought

Beauty from ashes

and made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has past

I still will remain

after I’ve cried my last

There’ll be beauty from pain

Though it won’t be today

Someday I’ll hope again

And there’ll be beauty from pain

Here I am

at the end of me

trying to hold

to what I can’t see

I forgot how to hope

This night’s been so long

I cling to your promise

There will be a dawn

After all this has past

I still will remain

after I’ve cried my last

There’ll be beauty from pain

Though it won’t be today

Someday I’ll hope again

and there’ll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain.

Beauty From Pain by Superchick