scared TW medical and trauma and death

TW trauma and medical and deatht
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Please read carefully, from a concerned Ray and system,
We are freaking out about the Corona Virus, and not only that, but we are worried about the state of us medically. We are 88 pounds now, and we can’t get enough fluids or calories. We emailed our POTS specialist yesterday, and he is going to send our PCP some recommendations for IV fluids as a standing order or even home IV infusions. Yesterday, our heart rate got up to 141, even after taking our heart rate medication, and our blood pressure was 80/50. We are damn scared. We don’t want to die!! Our dietitian isn’t going to our GI appointment with us after all. She didn’t see the point. She said it wouldn’t be feasible. We spoke to the social worker for our course and to our instructor, and they are verry supportive and understanding. They said they wouldn’t let our DVR counselor take us out of the class. If we didn’t have that course, we would drive ourselves crazy with to much time on our hands thinking about everyting going on right now for us. During the day, our heart rate goes into the low 40’s at times. It’s scary, but the local hospital won’t do anything. We just have to wait to see the GI doctor. And now that we might be needing a feeding tube, Meridian has agreed that they will pay for the out-of-state treatment that we have been trying to get them to pay for for the past 3 years, but here’s the problem with that now. If we get the feeding tube, no residential place, or even River Oaks for that matter, will accept us because they don’t have the medical oversight to manage a J-tube. So, we are so close, but yet so so far away. We don’t want to die!! This is medical neglect. This is bringing up a lot of trauma stuff for us as well. We are trying our hardest to just hang on and not be swept away by all our emotions. We know we need help, but the medical system is failing us, big time!! Not sure how much more of it we can take, both physically, or mentally. We have no backup crisis plan, because no one knows what to do, and no place will take us because we are to complex and considered a liability. We can’t do standard eating disorder treatment programs, because we have an almost completely paralyzed stomach, so we are just told to wait and see GI. We were given a list of foods to avoid and ones to try by our dietitian, but the list is in print, and she just said it’s about trial and error. We were only able to finish half of an 8 ounce shake in her office on Monday. She could tell we were struggling, and she said she didn’t see an eating disorder when she looked at us. She also saw the results of our gastric emptying study, and she said an eating disorder wouldn’t cause results that severe. Doctors don’t know enough about this condition, and there is not enough research being done on it. We are desperate for some kind of hope. 
We also found out that our worker that comes 4 days of the week can no longer work for us, so it’s back to not knowing who will come the next day except for Tuesdays. Ugh!!
Ray et al

Spoke to our primary care providers office yesterday trigger warning medical

Trigger warning medical not sure……So, yesterday, we called our primary care providers office and asked her for help. We asked if they could place an NJ tube, but she said that she could not do that. She had said we had to wait for the G.I. consult on March 20. She wants us to drink three protein shakes per day diluted with water to make them easier to swallow as well as eating three full-size meals per day. This is nearly impossible. We can barely manage some days to eat some applesauce and some chicken broth. Why can’t we just get help? I also found out why I haven’t been seeing my dietitian. My primary care provider never sent in a referral to her when I switched providers. So I have not seen her since January 7. I called her and asked her for her advice yesterday, and I asked her if she could prescribe a feeding tube, and she said if it was eating disorder related, maybe. She told me to also wait for the G.I. consult. I am just getting so frustrated at this point. I just need nutrition! Dammit!Ray

chronic pain is my companion Trigger warning

chronic pain and medical stuff trigger warning:

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chronic pain and fatigue is my constant companion. I retain urine, it hurts when I eat, I constantly dislocate my shoulders, ribs, and fingers; my hands and feet are constantly cold; if I stand to long, my legs hurt because of the blood pulling; my jaw hurts after eating or chewing; I just want to be normal, but chronic pain is my companion. Brain fog is always an issue. I just feel so alone.

I had to cancel therapy yesterday because of the fatigue. I also woke up yesterday with a dislocated rib and shoulder which I had to put back in. I knew it was going to be one of those days. I hated to cancel therapy, but it was necessary. Thanks for reading.

Ray

eating issues and medical stuff TW

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Hello everyone,
so we are really struggling with eating because of pain from eating because the food just sits there and doesn’t move for a while. Also been struggling with heart rate and blood pressure issues. I do think this is related to EDS (Ehlers’ Danlos Syndrome). All alters as far as i know have agreed to try with eating, but the physical stuff is making it really hard. We haven’t used laxatives in a few months which is good, but now we are finding it hard to even try a lot with eating because of the physical pain. The fatigue is a lot to handle. Heart rate the other day went from 82 to 132 from laying to standing. I do understand that there are mental health things going on, but there are also physical things going on as well which complicate the mental health stuff. I don’t even know where i was going with all this, except to say that we are very frustrated. The Reglin isn’t working anymore either. Ugh!! Blood pressure was 89/46 the other morning. Our new worker is recovering from anorexia, and she doesn’t understand all the physical stuff we have going on, so when she asks us if we’re hungry, and we say no, she thinks it’s because of the eating disorder, but it’ really because we know how much pain eating causes us. I wanted to be honest about this with people and hope you understand that there is more to this eating issue than just an eating disorder. We’re just really complex patients. Hoping the new PCP can help figure some of this out. She is referring us for genetic testing. I’m just at a complete loss.
Ray

Productive electrophysiologist appointment yay!

so today we saw the electrophysiologist. It was a very productive appointment. He’s starting me on Floren f. It’s a medication to help retain salt and water to help with the blood pressure. He also wants me to see an Ehlers Danlos syndrome specialist. He’s taking labs in like 3 weeks to check my electrolyte levels. i have to try the dose I’m starting on for a month, and if that doesn’t work, then we will raise the dose. Then we give that another month to see if it works. If it doesn’t, then we either try a med called Midadrine or do a tilt table test. I’m going back to see him in three months. He said the ED played a part in this. He said I most likely had POTS. He doesn’t know why I’m going to a neurologist. I now have to find an EDS specialist who takes Medicaid. Let the hunt begin!!! oh boy. Ray

FULL DAY AHEAD

So, this morning, my caseworker is coming to take me to get fitted for compression stockings. Then my homemaker is coming at 10:15 AM and will be here until 2:15 PM. Then at 3:15 PM I’m taking my cat Tweety to the vet. He has to get his shots, and then I have to schedule the appointment to get him fixed. So all in all, a busy day.

Ray

POTS FLARE UP!!!

So, today has been hard. My POTS is flaring up again. I woke up this morning, and I checked my pulse, it was 69. I got up and went to make breakfast. All I did was put it in the microwave. Within 15 minutes of standing, my heart rate was 161. I had woken up at 10:15 am, but by 2, I was tired and had to go to sleep again. I only woke up about an hour ago. POTS is so frustrating to live with. I go to the cardiologist on Monday to get a second oppinion about it. If anyone has any advice on dealing with this condition, please help. I’m taking in extra salt and as much as I can. I also have an eating disorder. Thanks for reading.

Ray

POTS — actually having a good day!!!!

So, today and the last few days have been really good with the heart rate and POTS symptoms. Maybe it’s because of the extra salt that I’m taking in, or maybe it’s just good luck??? I don’t know, but I’m enjoying it while it lasts!!!!!!! I usually sleep on my couch because it’s elevated because I sleep with my head on the armrest, but tonight I’m going to try and sleep in my bed and see how that goes.

Ray

Ehlers-Danlos syndrome? Possible diagnosis

So, my primary care provider told me today that I most likely have Ehlers-Danlos syndrome hypermobility type which is a connective tissue disorder that affects the skin and that it is translucent and stretchy, but it also affects the joints because they are hyper mobile and move in ways they shouldn’t causing frequent subluxation and sprains. This along with pots makes for a very difficult time. These are both chronic illnesses. Looking for support in anyway I can get it.