FROM EMIE

HI, IM EMIE AND IM 13. IM FAT!!!!!!! WHY DID RAY HAVE TO EAT THAT PIZZA!!!!! I HAVE TO STARVE AND PURGE!!!! I HATE THE WAY I LOOK. I WANT TO LOSE AND LOSE THE WEIGHT… I HATE BEING FAT!!!!!! NO ONE THINKS WE ARE SICK ENOUGH FOR ED TREATMENT.

EMAI

ED thoughts

I don’t want to eat. If I do, I want to throw up. I hate gaining weight. I just want to be thin. I also want to binge, but that would be allowing myself to have sweets, and we just can’t do that. I need to starve…

Amilia

memories 

In the group home where we live, our bedrooms are cold. The cold reminds me of being in an old house where we used to live with my parents. We had no food, no blankets, and very little clothing. I know I’m not there now, but it’s so cold that it just reminds me of being there ‘ag. Other than that, I’m having a prety okay day. Haven’t had the urge to cut… That’s good. When I take naps without taking my medicine for nightmares, I still have them which isn’t good, but I survive. I’ve been fighting the urges to not eat or to purge my food. I’m happy to say that I’ve made it successfully without doing either. I also haven’t had any breakdowns which makes today a good day. Never stop believing in yourself.